I was driving to a meeting yesterday, when the song, "When I see you Smile" by Bad English came on the radio. Now, this is a really crappy song, but when I was in 7th grade, Jeff Allen called in and dedicated it to me on the local college radio station.
Ohmigod! I was so excited! I was so touched! I was so in love!
Cassie circa 1991
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Maybe I’m feeling nostalgic, like This and That, or maybe its because my 10 year high school reunion came and went.
Or maybe it’s because I randomly heard that song on Jack FM and immediately recognized it due to the one time I had heard it.
But i was thinking about a simpler time. Not that my life is so utterly complicated now, but i wish I could get the same feeling of giddiness i got from hearing that song request back in 1991 from something like, getting a tax refund. Or maybe getting my car back from the mechanic! I guess i got really giddy over going to Seattle last year and seeing Dead Can Dance - but is that all i have to look forward to? Why can't i get giddy like that ALL the time like in jr. high and high school, instead of just once in a while when i shell out tons of dough?
I'm taking that back, just like in Clerks 2 - but a little different (WHICH i would recommend to ANYONE who had seen Clerks back in 1995 - if you haven't seen it and appreciated it, don't try to see it now, and then watch Clerks 2. You will be disappointed.)
But yes. I'm taking small triumphs and giddiness back from the carefree pre-teen and teens.
I am going to try really really hard to get passionate about something, enough to not be able to sleep the night before (other than a job interview or court date)!'
I will from now on be excited and giddy about all things!
And as I look at my daily life, here is where the challenge lies:
1. Getting up for work!
2. Paying my bills on time!
3. Hearing my boss tell me he has another project due tomorrow for me!
4. Your Dart needs more work!
5. You need to get braces to correct that existing baby tooth!
6. Another season of The Apprentice!
7. Taco Salad for dinner.....again!
8. Your bar tab is over $30.....again!
9. Looks like the dryer shrunk another pair of your jeans! Seriously!
10. Getting up for work!
That's right. I am going to think about that feeling I got when Jeff Allen dedicated me a song on the radio, and then asked me to the Valentine's Dance. I will stand up tall and sing, "When I see you Smile" all the way home!
Get ready for greatness, Lloyd!