Monday, March 20, 2006
I invented Post-Its, too!
Well, it finally happened.
I got my first email regarding my 10 year high school reunion. I expected it for some time now, and yup. There it be.
So of course I’ve decided that if my reunion is in August, that gives me plenty of time to lose those last few 10 lbs and win the Nobel Prize for Peace, right?
But you want to know what IS the problem? As much as I liked high school – I don’t really remember many people. My friend who emailed me actually is married and living in Los Angeles – so even SHE doesn’t keep in contact with too many other people. She told me a way to access all the hub bub on MySpace by visiting my school’s profile – but I don’t remember half the people on the site! Only a FEW people jumped out at me, and no one I really desired to talk to.
I started thinking, “Why go?”
I mean, everyone I knew in high school that I was friends with, I somewhat still talk to. These other people – GEEZ. I don’t even know what to say to them.
“Hello. I live in Denver. Kansas City sure is hot in August.”
Plus, it’s not that I’m not proud of the path I have chosen for my life – but I almost feel like I have to have been super successful and show off how much I’ve changed in 10 years.
I mean, when I thought about attending my 10 year reunion right AFTER high school, I wanted to go with a buddy of mine (who is now married with kids) all high with a 40 oz. That was my dream! You know what’s scary? I still think that sounds fun!!! I haven’t changed A BIT!!!
I guess I don’t really HAVE to have changed too much – I just wish I didn’t feel pressured into thinking about it.
Maybe I just don’t feel like I’ve reached my goals yet. Hell, I don’t even know what my goals ARE.
Well, I’ve succeeded into bumming myself out, and feeling like I’m an old shoe the cobbler can’t fix. Now I really DO want to go get high and drink a 40 oz.
Man. That STILL sounds fun.